so i guess i'm at the point in my relationship when i start noticing small things like the forgetfulness of a simple 'i love you' which doesn't have to be mentioned but still feels good to hear it. i think the words i want to hear need to stop being bench-warmers and step up & join the game. i don't know what it is that leads me to spot "flaws" in EVERY relationship; but i do. its not like i'm falling out its more like im getting too sucked in which is also bad because i fucking hate being open.

we were so happy poor but then we got rich; i bet i quoted that wrong.

i love everything about him ugh. im such a girl. lol. & im working on a new poem; it doesnt have a title. & im contemplating on wheter i should submit a poem for this scholarship; its not local; but i feel confident in my work & even if i don't win the scholarship; then i'll still be proud of myself for taking the chance.