so i guess i'm at the point in my relationship when i start noticing small things like the forgetfulness of a simple 'i love you' which doesn't have to be mentioned but still feels good to hear it. i think the words i want to hear need to stop being bench-warmers and step up & join the game. i don't know what it is that leads me to spot "flaws" in EVERY relationship; but i do. its not like i'm falling out its more like im getting too sucked in which is also bad because i fucking hate being open.

we were so happy poor but then we got rich; i bet i quoted that wrong.

i love everything about him ugh. im such a girl. lol. & im working on a new poem; it doesnt have a title. & im contemplating on wheter i should submit a poem for this scholarship; its not local; but i feel confident in my work & even if i don't win the scholarship; then i'll still be proud of myself for taking the chance.

kickin' it;

"we look so; so . . . so not black !" [atlantic terminal;brooklyn] we didn't blend in much but luckily we weren't the target of a stray bullet [just kidding!] that's shante; [jigga/shaz/my sister] throw out her whole gov't why don't 'cha ? today was suppose to be a day well spent at the aquarium--73 degrees; HELL YEAH ! but what had happened was . . .

• 8:30am jigga comes over
• 9ish am we made breakfast --pancakes eggs & mashedpotatoes[hella bomb !]
• appearntly my cooking has drugs in it or im just black enough that people catch the itis from my cooking ;] we knocked out at around 10am & woke up a little after 1pm. [we were suppose to have left by 1 to make it to the aquarium by 3
• i was ready by 3pm lol
• took TWO trains to get to atlantic ave got off the train STARTED MY AFTERNOON with a LARGE caramel swirl latte [bc bklyn doesnt carry small cups -_- ]decided not to go to the aquarium only to find out that it was CLOSED good heavens.

met up with quana & shaqie abused them--jigga quana & shaqie
& then my boyfriend dropped by; who is awfully taller than me<3 size="3">[my doctor told me i was under avg. height]

awkward turtle o.o [shaq's turso rest of of him natural hair colour *the blonde;it was greywhen i was born then it changed colours
the perfect ending to my day. . . meeting up with my bestie mannywell except he's a little camera shy >=] & with quana

hmm more of a photo/written journal rather than an actual tangent entry. BTW; photos courtesy of jigga. view her blog link highlited in the abovee txt :]

wth?

"My husband and I splurged and ordered pizza for dinner"; read article? LMAO ohkay. that almost beats: "nearly 100% of pro-choicers were never aborted" the interweb makes me laugh. NEW PLANET FOUND omg ! im such a nerd. when i was like 10 i was convinced i would becomes an astronaut; then i was reminded about that space shuttle that blew up in '86--everyone died. & i was all like FCK that & left those dreams behind. but that was when my mom REALLY REALLY REALLY cared about what i was going to become...damn; way to crush a childs dream mom !
space balls dumb movie. see it x] i think that maybe i will invite change ?