now;

what i really want to do is design a dress. . .

!!!!!! ;

OMG OMG OMG CONGRATULATIONS QUANA !!!!! IM SO FCKN PROUD OF YOU !!!!!!
!!!!
my baby is so collegeeeeee bounddd<3333

you know what ?

so in september i took my lip ring out for good, it got infected--eww. but i was going to get my lip redone;

this is hen kainat interrupts.
hi guys. im kainat and i loove randeva. shes very un-kissable.
WAH WAH WAHW WAH WAH WAH WAH WWAH WAH WAH WAH WAWAH
no. find out the meaning of kainat.

with snakebites. "WITH SNAKEBITES I CAN RULE THE WORLD"--KAINAT
recluse = reckless && then i noticed that all these little hoodboogers have lip rings -_- freaking lil wayne influenecing these kids. but point blank im not getting my lip repeirced, well unless i do get snakebites; but lets just hope that that doesnt become a major fashion movement as well.

rage of the heart;

i put my finger on the trigger to detonate the extremities of my actions.
that mistake was suppose to happen; i allowed it
i dont know why but i wanted it.
i knew i would have to confront it.
i couldnt debunk it; any of the accusations because they were all true.
rage of my heart; you knew i wanted it too.
sorry for putting it out then sealing it up again.


update completely.

7:30pm

is the time i got home yesterday & my mom had a fit. what is it about parents that makes them go crazy when you're like an hour or so late ? well i guess its because i didnt call her & tell her where i was. but her being angry was all worth it; i had some "quality" time with senor <3 lol


ahhhhh i dont like to kiss but i really like his lips ;]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY;

to my brother whose officially a grown man today <3

but it seems like the truth is that when you go; those people who you thought cared so much about you // liked you so very much; don't really give a fuck.
its like people only want to remember you once you're there; but fucking diverge from the fact that they know you once you're away; but when everything around you is heading into a spiraling abyss; grab my hand.


fuck them all ; fuck them all kidd.

word is bond.

guess what !

update !


more later ?


chyeaaa :]

& my bottom lip;

is definitely swollen; sigh. so that means ... I GOT MY LIP PIERCED ! how over joyed am i ? well a lot but not too much because i dont want my mom to see and because my lip kind of hurts. but i like it and it looks nice. and because i am oh so gangster ; i'm hiding it this entire weekend by putting a bandaid over it, nifty aint i ?

everybody needs a hero;

so growing up, the only thing i knew about heroes was that they were super. lol. they possessed super human powers and were the "worlds" protectors. what always caught my attention was, how they could save and protect the world from evil villains if they would only stay in their own city ? well ofc i liked the mighty morphin power rangers, to be honest i thought that Alpha would recruit me as the pink ranger someday; yeah but as we can see, that never happened...and of course i still envied wonder woman, but it was more of a wanting to be her sidekick envy because she didnt need the help. even though these heroes did not save the world, i nearly worshiped them. the only super hero that was all he cracked up to be was Captain Planet. with the help of his multiracial gang of adolescents, they helped keep the world clean from pollution, the cut down of trees, and the destruction of rain forest ! Cap't Planet and his gang were no joke when it came to saving ANY part of the world, and to top it off, they promoted a cleaner world. i think the show made recycle and throw garbage into a waste basket at least once a day. now; imagine what it would be like to have real Captain Planet who didnt over price when it came to "going green"

im gone;

i hate being sent through loops that shit is so annoying and its definitely not my style.that is hurr he is strenght ; sometimes my kindness is taken for granted but hey; whose isn't? i need more than some fresh air right now, i need to get lifted.

but i really like your lips;

what i really want now are snakebites. but i doubt i'll get them. im not afraid of the pain or how it would look but i know my moms would kick my ass from here to timbuktu--deadass. speaking of lips; dont you hate how parents [moms especially] love to give you the third degree about your relationship status. its not like i talk to my mom and be like "hey ma im currently dating____." no; thats definitely not happening. so yesterday i was minding my business engaged in a delightful conversation when out of nowhere my mom goes "boo; have you ever been kissed" so of course i started laughing because WHERE THE HECK DID THIS COME FROM?! and its not like my mom got the message to just quite the beginning of a non-existent conversation because this woman was PERSISTENT. i swear if she was a cop doing an interrogation the person would probably crack after a min. sheesh throwing all these questions at me at once. but the answer to that question is yes i have been kissed but i hate kissing[near death experience noted*] and basically my mom thinks i have no physical attraction to the opposite / same sex which in all actuality is a good enough space between the both of us.
*his lips are the only lips i wouldnt mind on mine; well as of right now <3

reminisce to good ol' days;

SO; i keep asking myself why does everyone want to get older? i mean all youre gonna do is shrivel up & die ... well im pretty sure youre gonna experience this & that--that & this; but still that can wait. right now im still focusing on my saturday mourning cartoons & whats the latest power rangers because you know they update the subname like EVERY month or so[power ranger s.p.d /mystic force FTW !] but im so serious im still living my childhood even though 17; why cant everyone else see that becoming an adult is scary so you might as well live it up now. i bet i'll feel a different way gave or take 2-3 more months when school actually gets heavy; but til then im living slow peterpan style.

& the winner is;

first & foremost im devii--& you will get to know me.